Whilst applying for work I’ve been able to be a little reflective, and therefore stressed lol. I realise that my degree got me nowhere because for some jobs I’ve had to remove my degree off my CV in order to get an interview. And I’m physically limited because of my disability. I’m like jack of all trades, master of none.
I’m forever comparing myself to other people which is something I MUST stop doing. I’m comparing myself to my fellow graduate who is doing well in her legal career whereas I can’t even land an interview. I’m comparing myself to Jade because at least she has a skill and is using it, and I don’t feel like an equal because I’m not bringing in any money. I’m comparing myself to someone amazing who has been through her fair share of shit and is able to be in the position to buy her own house.
But I’ve gained perspective. Life took me elsewhere to heal from trauma. A job will come along when it comes. I’m going to TRY and stop stressing about feeling inadequate. I’m definitely trying to stop comparing myself, that’s for sure. I might never own my own home but that’s ok. I might never get to where I wanted to be but that’s ok. Because where I wanted to be 10 years ago isn’t where I want to be now. Success for me meant high flying career and all associated.
Nowadays I value health, love and happiness in terms of success. And I consider myself pretty successful 💜
The Warrior Within 