This has to be the biggest lesson I learned in 2017.
I realised that my decisions I was making, I was making for me. Of course I considered other people’s views and opinions but ultimately I had to sit down and evaluate where my life was going, and most importantly who with. I cut a lot of people out of my life when I was in rehab mainly because they didn’t want to or couldn’t support me, or because they didn’t realise a relationship is a two-way thing. You don’t give to receive, you give to give back. I lost people I considered real friends which was heartbreaking at the time but my Mum actually helped me through this challenge. Sometimes when you move on in life, in whatever direction, you have to accept that some people won’t be following you and that’s ok.
I have made some pretty shitty decisions over the last year, but some pretty good ones too. I decided them on the basis on how it was going to affect me because at the end of the day, I am the one who has to live with the consequences.
If you have to wake up and fight your mind every day like I do, then you may have an opinion. If you struggle with physical pain so unbearable at times you need a wheelchair, then you may have an opinion. If you’ve lived my life (or came out of my uterus) then you may have an opinion.
Until then, don’t judge my decisions. You don’t know what got me here xxx
The Warrior Within 