If I told you I had an illness that 10% of us with it would die, would you take me seriously?
If I told you that it was a mental illness called Borderline Personality Disorder, would you still take me seriously?
10% of people with BPD commit suicide and I can tell you, 4 years ago today that was me. I can tell you 4 months ago, that was me. Trying to end my pain by trying to end my life.
It probably doesn’t make sense to many, but consider yourselves lucky that you’ve never had to deal with emotions so intense that the only way you see out of it is to die. It’s such a drastic motion. It’s so final. And yet, if you speak to most people they’d rather be able to live in peace without their demons than try and commit suicide.
Look at Robin Williams; he had it all and made the world laugh. He was so scared about living his life with Parkinson’s that he imagined people would be better off without him. Let me tell you, NO-ONE is “better off without you”. Regardless of your situation, you are important to someone. They would miss you. Someone in this world needs you.
My message today in my Happiness Journey is to protect those who suffer with mental health and to not judge them. You can pot a broken foot but you can’t plaster a broken mind. It takes time, patience and understanding and not a dismissive, judgmental society.
4 years ago today I tried to kill myself. I thought people would be better off without me, that the pain wouldn’t stop etc but due to support and the right medication I am so thankful someone intervened. It’s taken 4 years to be honest in saying this but I’m glad I didn’t commit suicide.
The Warrior Within 