I am currently situated in a psychiatric ward somewhere in the Midlands, UK. I have been on this ward before and its fully of, mostly, lovely staff. I have caused some serious hurt in the past few weeks, and some confusion so I am here to clear that up. I have been lying and deceiving …
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My Experience of Hallucinations
I experience visual and auditory hallucinations. To me, I am several shades of fucked up. BACKGROUND: I was sexually abused as a child by a relative, which last between the ages of 7 and 12, and I still remember to this day how he smelt. How cold his hands were. How painful it was. How …
World Mental Health Day 2019: Suicide Prevention
It’s World Mental Health Day 2019 and this year’s theme is Suicide Prevention. EVERY DAY is Awareness Day for me and my fellow warriors.•The NHS, as wonderful as this institution is, is SEVERELY underfunded when it comes to mental health. We can raise awareness across social media, we can raise funds for Mind/Samaritans/Papyrus and the …
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Time Out, Thanks
On Friday 4th October I took a concoction of medication and a bottle of wine and my suicide attempt was intervened by police officers. Because of the nature of what I took, I was taken straight to Resus at our local hospital. I woke up in the early hours of Sunday morning. WHY???? Because I’m …
Overview of DBT for EUPD
DBT (Dialectal Behaviour Therapy) was developed by Marsha Linehan is extremely effective in aiding people with overwhelming emotions, common with people who have Borderline Personality Disorder, or Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder. “DBT teaches four critically important skills that can both reduce the size of the emotional waves and help you keep your balance when these …
Top 5 Tips to Surviving the Shit Days
I don’t know if this’ll be helpful to anyone but here’s some advice from someone who has been through the system and been to some of the darkest places known to man. Here is what I have really learned and implemented over 18 years of struggling with my mental health. Recovery IS possible. It’s hard …
Be A Candle
Don’t feel bad if people remember you only when they need you; feel privileged that you are like a candle that comes to their mind when there is darkness. I used to be upset when people would only come to me when they needed me. Some people need me only every six months, some daily …
Hating Your Body Doesn’t Change It
The theme for Mental Health Awareness Week is body image.•I have struggled with my weight all my life, been thrown every insult under the sun, been the butt of everyone’s joke because I’m overweight. You’ve heard it? They’ve said it.•I can change my relationship with food that contributes to my weight. I can challenge my …
Kindness? Thank You
To the Costa barista who gave me a medium when I paid for a small – thank you.•To Valerie, on the train for making me smile, hugging me and talking about acceptance of mental health in society – thank you.•To my Dad who collected/returned me from the station and wrote kind words about me – …
Why Society Is Wrong About Me
It was society that taught me to hate who I am. It was bullying that taught me from a young age that being a different shape from the rest of the girls wasn’t acceptable. That being academically advanced wasn’t cool. That bringing in an ASDA bag for my PE kit instead of an Adidas one …
The Warrior Within 